"drain"

suicide as easy and inevitable as date rape.
<what a bloody horrible comparison..i should be killed for that>

a good nice clean shiny wholesome razor-sharp razorblade.
no effort
no harm
just a little off the top
good clean fun
not even a cut
not cutting.
just a scrape.
a few scrapes?
gotta..even it out.
white skin flakes pile up
a snow bank of self-induced wrist dandruff..
<*smirk* head & shoulders body wash..>
kids stuff, good for a laugh.
time to stop. it's been fun.
call it a night..but..no.
one more scrape..there are still a lot of layers to go.
times are good. cells and plentiful.
as long as we're being stingy and only taking off one layer at a time we
can go on all night..
one more, maybe another..even it off..wont hurt..
a slip.
one spasm.
a drop.
a drip.
a red streak soaks powdered flesh.
no pain. it's art. so pretty.
*sigh* it wont last!...
blood will dry brown and crack and *shudder* heal.
can't have that. no.
re-open the slice..keep it open..a pang..a sting..a bit of pain..it's
for a good cause..aesthetics..the only good cause..wince. shudder.
cringe. anything. everything for aesthetics..frustration..even with this
though.the best we can do..it wont last..everything ends...why
stay?nothing else will...panic..frenzy..madness ..desperation..
confusion. ..big big big storm..blood decapitated bodies mangled charred
flesh heads on sticks horror everywhere it's the end of the world as we
know it and i feel like shit why resist? what's the use?
thereisnonenomore Plunge.

drain.

-anonymous

Last update: Sunday, February 28, 1999 13:30