Rollercoaster

Pain, Maintaining, Content, Numbness
A rolling cycle, out of control.
Stop the change! Stop the chaos! Stop!
I want off, I can’t take this constant motion!

So unpredictable, never knowing what the next moment holds,
Up? Down? Enthused? Unemotional?
My head spins, my heart breaks.
I am out of control and I can’t fix it.

The turmoil continues to push,
Teetering on the edge,
Sometimes praying I’ll fall,
Sometimes, begging for someone to reach out.

Alone, trapped inside myself,
Crying on the inside, no one hears,
Begging for an end to this madness,
Just one moment of peace.

Not to be for one moment,
Run away from the beast within,
Run away from this sickness,
Leave the thoughts that race in my mind.

My grip is quickly slipping,
I have no strength to hold on,
I can not win this battle,
I can not win this fight against myself!

-Familygal

Last update: Sunday, June 20, 1999 16:42