Three Poems of lost Love
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Dream
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I dreamt of the end of us.
Your resolve so absolute.
Every word and every action,
pushing me away from you.
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I dreamt your love was gone.
No more was I for you.
There was no hope, no second chance,
there was nothing I could do.
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In despair and confusion
I wandered the barren plains
of a bleak and harsh existence,
where nought but darkness remained.
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I hated you yet I loved you,
I cursed and swore and raged.
You destroyed my life so suddenly
and left me there to fade.
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Out of the light and into darkness,
my life had come apart,
my seams unravelled, my heart laid bare,
frozen by your frigid heart.
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I wandered there for an eternity,
no light or love to sustain
my fragile existence.
And here I yet remain.
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I tried to awake, to enter the light,
to escape this nightmare.
I cried out for your help
but you were no longer there.
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So here am I, trapped,
an exile from life and hope.
Here in this unreal reality,
awaiting death, agonising and slow.
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In this dream I lost you,
My beloved, my true love.
In all the world nothing is dearer,
than the love I no longer have.
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....Hammer....
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My Dearest Love .

My mind can find no peace,
it's tormented by thoughts of you.
It consumes me with despair,
for the loss of a love so true.
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Why must I still love you?
Why did you stop loving me?
Why am I so powerless,
unable to let go of thee?
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I can't move on with life,
I simply cannot do other,
than mourn and lament
the lost love of a lost lover.
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Perhaps there's life after death
but there is no life after this.
My only hope is to be reborn,
with your loving sweet kiss.
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I would die for you a thousand deaths.
I would live for you a thousand lives.
And still I wait and still I hope
that your love will materialise.
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Please come back to me my dearest love.
Find within your heart,
a glimmer of tenderness,
from which to make a new start.
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Find this spark within
and nurture it true
until it blazes as brightly
as my love does for you.
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Then we can be together again.
So perfect, pure and right,
like the phoenix from the ashes
rises to begin a perfect life.
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....Hammer....
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Sweet Kiss .
Dig the fit deeper,
my heart still beats.
Whilst love still lives,
its loss devours me.
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I crave the sweet kiss,
of steel in my vein.
Promising oblivion,
the answer to all pain.
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There is only one ending,
an O.D.
of hammer.
Any less won't suffice,
co's dead men don't suffer.
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You drove me away,
So let this be our last kiss.
Aim true, kick back,
punch it in, don't miss.
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I can't take the agony,
I'm done with this.
Let's say goodbye,
with a sweet kiss.
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....Hammer....
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Last update: Sunday, October 18, 1998 21:24

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