Session Start: Fri Dec 15 16:16:43 2000
[16:16] Session Ident: Euthanasia44 (IP deleted)
[16:16] (Euthanasia44) Hi there.
[16:17] (stbdchick) hi
[16:17] (Euthanasia44) Who are you trying to talk out of suicide now? hahahaha
[16:17] (stbdchick) someone is having a bad time - maybe breaking up
[16:17] (Euthanasia44) I see
[16:18] (Euthanasia44) Well, are you ok with the (nick2 deleted) situation now?
[16:18] (stbdchick) I think so
[16:18] (Euthanasia44) Good
[16:19] (Euthanasia44) I think the first night should just be to visit and so on, then I will do her the next morning while your gone
[16:19] (Euthanasia44) I know you both want time together
[16:19] (stbdchick) why is she first?
[16:20] (Euthanasia44) Becasue she wants to be
[16:20] (Euthanasia44) and she wont do anything for me sexually
[16:20] (stbdchick) I dunno
[16:21] (Euthanasia44) what are you thinking?
[16:22] (stbdchick) I am typing to a depressed friend
[16:23] (Euthanasia44) I see
[16:25] * stbdchick sighs.
[16:26] (stbdchick) who the hell is gonna take care of all these people?
[16:26] (Euthanasia44) I have no idea
[16:26] (Euthanasia44) you could stick around you know?
[16:26] (stbdchick) I don't even mean when I die
[16:26] (stbdchick) even when I go back to work next week
[16:26] (Euthanasia44) Your going back?
[16:27] (stbdchick) yes, I go back to work on Monday
[16:27] (Euthanasia44) good
[16:27] (stbdchick) I don't have enough $ to stay out until we do this
[16:27] (Euthanasia44) make everything go back to normal
[16:27] (stbdchick) ha!
[16:27] (stbdchick) work was the last straw for me before
[16:28] (stbdchick) I hate my job
[16:28] (Euthanasia44) don't want people to know what your up too
[16:28] (stbdchick) true
[16:28] (Euthanasia44) Well, it's only until Feb
[16:28] (Euthanasia44) If you still want this that is
[16:28] (stbdchick) I still think Jan would be better
[16:29] (Euthanasia44) I know
[16:30] (Euthanasia44) this is not exactly like you would have it, but there are not a lot of options
[16:30] (stbdchick) why is jan not an option?
[16:30] (Euthanasia44) don't think there is 2 weeks open
[16:31] (stbdchick) please find out
[16:31] (Euthanasia44) Jan 29 thru Feb 17
[16:31] (stbdchick) and... must be other cabins as well...
[16:31] (Euthanasia44) yes
[16:31] (Euthanasia44) you can look too
[16:32] (Euthanasia44) maybe you will find something I have not
[16:32] (Euthanasia44) I really feel more comfortable with planning for Feb.
[16:33] (stbdchick) why?
[16:33] (Euthanasia44) first part of Feb
[16:33] (Euthanasia44) You ahve made it this long, whats a few months?
[16:34] (Euthanasia44) gives (nick2 deleted) time to sell her things, and you time to come up with your money from your retirment account and so on
[16:34] (stbdchick) a few months in pain is an eternity
[16:35] (Euthanasia44) I'm still researching things too, like the grinder you don't want to talk about
[16:36] (Euthanasia44) I don't think I'm going to be willing to rush this if I'm not completly comfortable with knowing I can do this and not get cot by using the right equipment to get rid of remains
[16:36] (stbdchick) how is jan rushing? that is weeks away
[16:36] (Euthanasia44) I'm sorry
[16:37] (Euthanasia44) I'm working on it
[16:37] (Euthanasia44) we will see
[16:37] (Euthanasia44) but I know your not happy about not being first
[16:37] (stbdchick) I feel creepy about their being corpses around
[16:38] (Euthanasia44) no body, just meat in teh fridge
[16:38] (Euthanasia44) if I get the grinder, it all will be done in a day
[16:38] (stbdchick) same thing though
[16:38] (Euthanasia44) so no body in the bath tub
[16:39] (Euthanasia44) Well, if you don't think you can handle it, you might not want to do this?
[16:39] (Euthanasia44) It's up to you, don't know what you can handle
[16:40] (Euthanasia44) you would be second however
[16:40] (stbdchick) http://www.malonestahoecabin.com/calendar.htm
[16:40] (stbdchick) it's available the 16-26
[16:40] (stbdchick) in january
[16:40] (Euthanasia44) I know, but it was wrong on the dates
[16:41] (Euthanasia44) that is 10 days, not 2 weeks
[16:41] (stbdchick) why is (nick5 deleted) last?
[16:42] (Euthanasia44) because she can handle being around dead bodies, and I could use her help maybe
[16:42] (Euthanasia44) Your to big for me to left by myself
[16:42] (Euthanasia44) I can handle the other 2 ok
[16:43] (Euthanasia44) So I might need a little assistance
[16:43] (Euthanasia44) Thats why
[16:43] (stbdchick) she doesn't know you're going to butcher us?
[16:43] (stbdchick) I mean, isn't she going to completly freak out when she finds out?
[16:44] (Euthanasia44) don't think so
[16:44] (Euthanasia44) but not going to tell her on the phone
[16:44] (Euthanasia44) someone who drank turpentine and was going to stabe herself in the tummy, probably wont have a problem with it
[16:45] (stbdchick) those are very different things, Euth
[16:45] (Euthanasia44) I know that
[16:45] (stbdchick) I was gonna hang myself, but would not be able to deal with corpses
[16:45] (Euthanasia44) I think she can handle it
[16:45] (stbdchick) I used to have to go to a slaughterhouse to get fresh calf brains for my research in grad school... couldn't stand it
[16:45] (stbdchick) and I didn't see anything
[16:46] (Euthanasia44) well, after you hang, you wont have to worry about it
[16:46] (Euthanasia44) but better not if you want her to get the money some day
[16:47] (Euthanasia44) just don't open the fridge
[16:47] (stbdchick) heh
[16:47] (Euthanasia44) We will just pretend she went home
[16:47] (stbdchick) get a cooler to keep soda in
[16:48] (stbdchick) so I can ignore the fridge
[16:48] (Euthanasia44) I'm thinking about that
[16:49] (Euthanasia44) might buy a small fridge there somewhere
[16:50] (stbdchick) no need for a small fridge
[16:50] (stbdchick) just a big styrofoam cooler
[16:50] (Euthanasia44) it is a big place, so just pretend she went home
[16:50] (Euthanasia44) sure
[16:50] (Euthanasia44) don't remember if there is a garage
[16:51] (Euthanasia44) the tempeture would be very cold in a garage
[16:51] (Euthanasia44) can put the cooler on the patio as well
[16:51] (Euthanasia44) it will be snow and very cold outside
[16:52] (Euthanasia44) So very good idea
[16:52] (Euthanasia44) it is such a nice house
[16:52] (Euthanasia44) 2 fireplaces
[16:52] (stbdchick) it's a gorgeous house
[16:53] (Euthanasia44) So you will have a very nice three or four days of the end of your life there.
[16:53] (Euthanasia44) peaceful
[16:54] (stbdchick) 3 or 4 days?
[16:54] (Euthanasia44) yep
[16:54] (Euthanasia44) we talked about that remember?
[16:55] (Euthanasia44) No need to kill you until ready to eat you
[16:55] (Euthanasia44) I will be eating (nick2 deleted) for the first three or four days
[16:55] (Euthanasia44) then you, and lst (nick5 deleted)
[16:56] (Euthanasia44) we talked about it
[16:56] (Euthanasia44) what are you thinking?
[16:59] (stbdchick) crisis... guy threatening suicide NOW
[16:59] (Euthanasia44) here, let him use my gun
[16:59] (stbdchick) not funny
[17:00] (Euthanasia44) hmmmmm
[17:06] (stbdchick) dammit
[17:06] (stbdchick) I hate this shit
[17:06] (stbdchick) why the HELL are there so damned many good, decent people that are this miserable?
[17:07] (Euthanasia44) Yes, and your one of them
Session Close: Fri Dec 15 17:14:31 2000<
Session Start: Fri Dec 15 19:01:49 2000
[19:01] Session Ident: Euthanasia44 (IP deleted)
[19:01] (Euthanasia44) So hows it going?
[19:02] (stbdchick) well... one friend is on the phone with the other friend trying to talk him out of it
[19:02] (stbdchick) I am providing moral support
[19:02] (Euthanasia44) I see, (nick2 deleted) has not called me.
[19:02] (stbdchick) she hasn't?
[19:02] (stbdchick) she hasn't been back online either
[19:03] (Euthanasia44) I do know she has distractions she can do nothing about, but I really want to hear her voice and talk to her.
[19:04] (Euthanasia44) I wonder if when we get together you will try to talk (nick2 deleted) out of doing it?
[19:05] (Euthanasia44) Like you say, you want no one but you to die, hahha
[19:05] (stbdchick) I need to talk to her a bit more, I think
[19:05] (stbdchick) and make sure
[19:05] (Euthanasia44) I hope you can accept her choice if it is to do it.
[19:06] (stbdchick) if she is certain
[19:06] (stbdchick) I have to be certain that she is certain tho
[19:07] (Euthanasia44) What if your not certain?
[19:07] (stbdchick) if I'm not certain, I can't be there
[19:07] (Euthanasia44) You might not want to believe she really wants to do it
[19:08] (Euthanasia44) Because you like her
[19:08] (stbdchick) liking her isn't the relevant bit
[19:09] (Euthanasia44) but it is effecting your judgement I think
[19:09] (Euthanasia44) because it always does when you really like someone
[19:09] (stbdchick) I have heard her say too many conflicting things
[19:09] (Euthanasia44) like?
[19:10] (stbdchick) like that she doesn't really want to die
[19:11] (Euthanasia44) Oh? when did she say that?
[19:11] (stbdchick) in posts
[19:11] (stbdchick) and once in chat with me
[19:11] (Euthanasia44) I saw that too
[19:11] (Euthanasia44) she told me not to take that seriously
[19:11] (Euthanasia44) hmmmmm
[19:12] (Euthanasia44) Well, if she does not want to die, she wont go through with this
[19:12] (stbdchick) we'll see
[19:12] (Euthanasia44) She seems pretty sure of this to me.
[19:13] (Euthanasia44) I told her I would not be angry if she backed out, and I would not be
[19:14] (stbdchick) like I said, I will talk to her some more
[19:14] (Euthanasia44) there she is
[19:15] (stbdchick) yes
[19:16] (Euthanasia44) husband is home
[19:16] (Euthanasia44) but is leaving, hope she calls me
[19:19] (Euthanasia44) it can be so hard to get a dinner date sometimes
[19:19] (stbdchick) that was BAD!
[19:19] (Euthanasia44) what happend to your humor today
Session Close: Fri Dec 15 20:15:59 2000
Session Start: Fri Dec 15 21:02:49 2000
[21:02] (stbdchick) do not ban (nick1 deleted) from here please
[21:03] (stbdchick) it's where he hangs when he's banned from the real channel
[21:03] (Euthanasia44) your a mind reader ha?
[21:03] (stbdchick) couldn't think of any other reaosn you'd be in this one
[21:03] (stbdchick) he really is an ok kid, he just has manic phases
[21:03] (Euthanasia44) your right,
[21:04] (stbdchick) and he gets obnoxious then
[21:04] (Euthanasia44) yes
[21:04] (Euthanasia44) I understand
[21:04] (Euthanasia44) I was not going to ban him, even from the otoher channell
[21:04] (stbdchick) then?
[21:05] (Euthanasia44) He does suffer with an illness, and I guess we should try to be more understanding
[21:05] (Euthanasia44) but wasn curious as what he was doing here
[21:05] (Euthanasia44) was
[21:05] (stbdchick) we ban him when he's being disruptive, but let him back in a day or two
[21:05] (Euthanasia44) Ok
[21:06] (Euthanasia44) your right about people who have problems, sometimes they are a pain in the ass
[21:06] (stbdchick) I know... sometimes I feel as if starting the channel made me the babysitter
[21:06] (Euthanasia44) I will leave now and not get into anything with him
[21:07] (Euthanasia44) it has
[21:07] (Euthanasia44) you are the babysister
[21:07] (Euthanasia44) baby sitter that is, hahha
[21:07] (Euthanasia44) but you reallty care about these people
[21:07] (Euthanasia44) can't type
[21:07] (stbdchick) course I care
[21:08] (Euthanasia44) You really want to leave them?
[21:08] (Euthanasia44) you really started something special here with this channel
[21:08] (stbdchick) I have to go back to work, so am mostly gonna leave them anyways
[21:09] (Euthanasia44) different values then any other channel on IRC, and it has worked very well
[21:10] (Euthanasia44) So you should feel good about the channel
[21:10] (stbdchick) the channel has gone well, yes
[21:10] (stbdchick) SOPs will keep it going
[21:10] (Euthanasia44) You want to talk (nick2 deleted) out of it, I want to talk you out of it, sheses
[21:11] (stbdchick) and I'll give the password to a couple folks
[21:11] (Euthanasia44) yes we will
[21:11] (Euthanasia44) but they are not you
[21:12] (stbdchick) heh... if everyone talks everyone out of it... you'll be hungry in the cabin in february!
[21:12] (Euthanasia44) hahahahaha
[21:13] (Euthanasia44) no, just we would have to order a pizza
[21:13] (stbdchick) heh
[21:14] (Euthanasia44) but you and her would have a lot of explaining to do when you got to your homes
[21:14] (Euthanasia44) she would have it worse
[21:14] (Euthanasia44) sould be sure before coming
[21:14] (Euthanasia44) Backing out would not be nice at that point
[21:16] (stbdchick) I agree
[21:16] (Euthanasia44) the news is talking about the woman that jumped out of the plane in flight
[21:17] (Euthanasia44) maybe she wanted to smoke
[21:18] (stbdchick) lol!
Session Close: Fri Dec 15 21:35:19 2000
Session Start: Fri Dec 15 22:28:03 2000
[22:28] Session Ident: Euthanasia44 (IP deleted)
[22:28] (Euthanasia44) www.incore.com/india/wildlife.tiger.html
[22:29] (stbdchick) yopu just wanna make sure SOMEONE gets to eat me
[22:29] (Euthanasia44) hahahahaha
[22:29] (stbdchick) ;)
[22:29] (Euthanasia44) that will tell you how the tiger attacks and feeds, hahhaha
[22:29] (Euthanasia44) But I found out the rate of attacks in the last few years
[22:30] (Euthanasia44) It has gone from 49 deaths to only 14 in 99
[22:33] (stbdchick) seems a long shot
[22:33] (Euthanasia44) but what you said about cats does not apply to a tiger
[22:33] (stbdchick) i see that
[22:34] (Euthanasia44) You could make more sure by taking a jog through its area at dusk
[22:34] (Euthanasia44) I thought they would knock you out or kill you quickly
[22:34] (Euthanasia44) You would never know it happend
[22:35] (Euthanasia44) You would have to find out the areas that have the most man eaters, and there are such areas
[22:36] (stbdchick) U don' think that'd be sure
[22:36] (stbdchick) if it had eaten earlier that day
[22:37] (Euthanasia44) it wont attack you if it had
[22:37] (Euthanasia44) you want a hungry tiger hunting at dusk
[22:37] (Euthanasia44) you have to follow the game trails
[22:38] (Euthanasia44) that is where it will hunt
[22:38] (Euthanasia44) go on a tour first, and find the game trails
[22:38] (stbdchick) Euth, this is ridiculous, I've never been out of the country
[22:38] (stbdchick) have no diea what game trails would look like
[22:38] (stbdchick) nor how to find a hungry tiger
[22:38] (Euthanasia44) Well, it was an idea
[22:39] (Euthanasia44) and no probl with the insurance
[22:40] (Euthanasia44) but it is harder now then it was a few years ago because of how they have hunted them out of there rightful place
[22:40] (Euthanasia44) the tiger would find you
[22:41] (Euthanasia44) but guess I better work on another idea, hahhah
[22:41] (Euthanasia44) but I wanted yu to see that page anyway
[22:42] (stbdchick) thanks
[22:43] (Euthanasia44) you probably will wind up on my dinner table after all, but want you to have all the options
[22:43] (stbdchick) well, you will cook me first, wouldn't want some poor tiger getting food poisoning
[22:45] (Euthanasia44) hahahha
[22:45] (Euthanasia44) So good of you to be conserned about wildlife, hahahaha
[22:46] (Euthanasia44) I'm going to be eating 6 legs, 6 tits, 6 thighs and 3 rumps, hmmmmmmmm
[22:47] (Euthanasia44) You would think I'm a starved tiger
[22:47] (stbdchick) heh
[22:49] (Euthanasia44) So do you want another choice from being eaten by me? or is this your choice?
[22:49] (stbdchick) I think so, yes
[22:50] (Euthanasia44) wich choice?
[22:50] (Euthanasia44) I gave you 2 options
[22:50] (stbdchick) I think I'm going with you
[22:50] (stbdchick) not for the eating part, which is irrelevant
[22:50] (Euthanasia44) Ok, your on the menu then
[22:51] (stbdchick) but just cause I don't wanna back out again and don't think I can go through it alone
[22:51] (Euthanasia44) yes
[22:51] (Euthanasia44) I understand that
[22:52] (Euthanasia44) if you did go for India, you would be a long ways from home and anyone you know
[22:52] (Euthanasia44) very lonely
[22:53] (stbdchick) true
[22:53] (Euthanasia44) not sure how much control you have over this, but need to ask you something
[22:54] (Euthanasia44) Could you switch to a vegetarian diet
[22:55] (stbdchick) ha!
[22:55] (stbdchick) could YOU?
[22:55] * stbdchick giggles.
[22:55] (Euthanasia44) nope
[22:55] (Euthanasia44) Oh well
[22:56] (Euthanasia44) unlike the tiger, I do play with my food, hahahahhaha
[22:56] (stbdchick) why switch my diet?
[22:57] (Euthanasia44) I understand the meat is better, but can't be sure.
[22:57] (Euthanasia44) and if possible, lose a little weight
[22:58] (Euthanasia44) I could not lift you by myself
[22:58] (Euthanasia44) But I might have a salution to that
[22:59] (Euthanasia44) I think I would have you get in the bath tub and then drink the wine that has the drug, then I don't have to move you anywhere
[22:59] (Euthanasia44) All the little things I have to consider
[22:59] (stbdchick) how are you going to make SURE I am dead before you start carving on me?
[22:59] (Euthanasia44) I know, you don't like to hear the details
[23:00] (Euthanasia44) you will be under water for a long time without boobles
[23:00] (Euthanasia44) and
[23:01] (Euthanasia44) after I believe your dead, I will cut your throat tring at the same time to remove your head
[23:01] (Euthanasia44) have to drain the blood next
[23:01] (Euthanasia44) You will be dead
[23:02] (Euthanasia44) the blood will be washed down the drain
[23:02] (Euthanasia44) then your ready for carving
[23:03] (stbdchick) I don't think I need this much detail
[23:03] (Euthanasia44) well, you ask?
[23:03] (Euthanasia44) Did you talk more with (nick2 deleted)?
[23:04] (stbdchick) not much
[23:05] (Euthanasia44) So do you think about this alot?
[23:07] (stbdchick) about death? yes
[23:07] (Euthanasia44) that and how we are going to do it? and maybe other options you might think of
[23:08] (stbdchick) I haven't had much time to think on my own yet
[23:08] (stbdchick) you're always here when I'm online! ;)
[23:08] (Euthanasia44) because you spend so much time on others problems
[23:09] (stbdchick) true
[23:09] (Euthanasia44) are you trying to tell me something? like leave you be for a wile?
[23:10] (stbdchick) it might be good to give me a few days to "digest" all this
[23:10] (stbdchick) it's been a lot
[23:10] (Euthanasia44) ok
[23:10] (stbdchick) and I need to talk to (nick2 deleted) a bit more too
[23:10] (Euthanasia44) well do
[23:11] (Euthanasia44) Yep
[23:11] (Euthanasia44) but think she wants this
[23:12] (stbdchick) I just need to feel more comfortable about that
[23:12] (Euthanasia44) You know who I'm worried about? (nick3 deleted)
[23:13] (Euthanasia44) I have become close to her
[23:13] (Euthanasia44) I hope she is ok
[23:14] (stbdchick) I haven't seen (nick3 deleted) online hardly at all
[23:14] (Euthanasia44) I know
[23:14] (stbdchick) she may have been hospitalized
[23:15] (Euthanasia44) not sure
[23:15] (Euthanasia44) but I'm worried about her
[23:15] (Euthanasia44) Hope I get a chanc to talk to her soon
[23:16] (Euthanasia44) Oh well, I will go now for a few days
Session Close: Fri Dec 15 23:17:06 2000
Session Start: Sun Dec 17 13:39:21 2000
[13:39] Session Ident: Euthanasia44 (IP deleted)
[13:39] (Euthanasia44) Hey, why does (nick1 deleted) have opp's, you know how dangerous that can be.
[13:40] (stbdchick) I didn't op him
[13:40] (stbdchick) but I don't un-op someone unless they do something wrong
[13:40] (Euthanasia44) I see
[13:40] (Euthanasia44) hmmmm
[13:40] (Euthanasia44) Well
[13:40] (Euthanasia44) He is quite now
[13:40] (Euthanasia44) so, guess I will leave him alone
[13:41] (Euthanasia44) but don';t think he should be opped
[13:41] (stbdchick) like I said, I didn't op him
[13:42] (Euthanasia44) I know
[13:42] (stbdchick) but... when I give people op's, I don't wanna tell them what to do
[13:42] (stbdchick) so... someone opped him
[13:42] (Euthanasia44) there is a way I think of setting his leval so no one can op him.
[13:42] (Euthanasia44) But, wont worry about it now
Session Close: Sun Dec 17 13:54:21 2000
Session Start: Mon Dec 18 18:10:47 2000
[18:10] Session Ident: Euthanasia44 (IP deleted)
[18:10] (Euthanasia44) Hi there
[18:11] (stbdchick) hi
[18:11] (Euthanasia44) Hows it going?
[18:11] (stbdchick) ok... first day back at work
[18:12] (Euthanasia44) Oh, tell me how it went?
[18:15] (Euthanasia44) I know your not happy about going back
[18:15] (stbdchick) it was ok
[18:15] (stbdchick) I didn't do any work at all
[18:15] (stbdchick) just talked to people
[18:15] (Euthanasia44) Well, thats ok
[18:16] (Euthanasia44) Do you have people there you like real well?
[18:18] (stbdchick) yes
[18:18] (stbdchick) I spent most of the day with two of them
[18:18] (stbdchick) was cool
[18:19] (Euthanasia44) Thats good
[18:19] (Euthanasia44) Hope it is not so bad for you going back.
[18:21] (Euthanasia44) Have to go now, talk to you later. bye for now
[18:22] (stbdchick) take care
Session Close: Mon Dec 18 18:22:08 2000
Session Start: Mon Dec 18 21:05:00 2000
[21:05] Session Ident: Euthanasia44 (IP deleted)
[21:05] (Euthanasia44) was not sure how you would react, hahhaha
[21:05] (stbdchick) I am quite used to being teasted online ;)
[21:05] (Euthanasia44) Ok
[21:05] (Euthanasia44) haveing fun
[21:05] (stbdchick) yup
[21:05] (stbdchick) :)
[21:06] (Euthanasia44) I might change it to Warrning, stbdchick is wearing leather today.
[21:06] (stbdchick) heh
[21:06] (Euthanasia44) what do you think?
[21:06] (stbdchick) sure
[21:06] (Euthanasia44) I'll think about it, maybe I can be even more creative.
Session Close: Mon Dec 18 21:07:18 2000
Session Start: Tue Dec 19 19:40:30 2000
[19:40] (stbdchick) have you spoken to (nick2 deleted) lately?
[19:40] (Euthanasia44) Not today
[19:40] (Euthanasia44) yesturday for a few
[19:41] (Euthanasia44) was wondering where she is today
[19:41] (stbdchick) I spoke to her from work today
[19:41] (stbdchick) but had to leave to see my therapist
[19:41] (Euthanasia44) and?
[19:41] (stbdchick) and now there is no answer
[19:41] (Euthanasia44) well, how was she doing when you did talk to her?
[19:41] (stbdchick) not good
[19:42] (stbdchick) she was pretty damned down
[19:42] (Euthanasia44) she has kids and lots of things going on there
[19:42] (stbdchick) kids got out of school early today - they were already there
[19:42] (stbdchick) I'll try back in a little while
[19:50] (Euthanasia44) well?
[19:50] (stbdchick) I was just knocked off, didn't try yet
[19:51] (Euthanasia44) she might be picking up her kids
[19:51] (Euthanasia44) or doing something with them
[19:51] (Euthanasia44) she is 5 hours behind you
[19:51] (stbdchick) I know
[19:52] (Euthanasia44) So, would not panic yet
[19:52] (stbdchick) I'm not panicking, just checking
[19:52] (Euthanasia44) I sure don't want her to go splat for sure
[19:52] (Euthanasia44) Ok
[19:52] (Euthanasia44) I know you feel close to her
[19:53] (Euthanasia44) I saw your post to her today on ASH
[19:53] (stbdchick) that was a few days ago
[19:54] (Euthanasia44) would you call the police?
[19:55] (stbdchick) not unless she wanted me to
[19:55] (Euthanasia44) The word police makes me very uncomfortable as you would understnad
[19:55] (stbdchick) people have the right to decide
[19:55] (stbdchick) yes
[19:56] (Euthanasia44) I know it's hard when you get close to someone
[19:56] (Euthanasia44) I'm very worried now about (nick3 deleted)
[19:57] (Euthanasia44) I hope she is ok
[19:57] (stbdchick) (nick3 deleted) was in bad shape this morning when I spoke to her
[19:57] (Euthanasia44) Oh?
[19:58] (Euthanasia44) tell me what you know
[19:58] (stbdchick) yes
[19:58] (stbdchick) she was thinking of a soft hanging tonight
[19:58] (Euthanasia44) did she tell her dad? is that is waht is going on?
[19:59] (Euthanasia44) Well, it's morning there now
[19:59] (Euthanasia44) I have not ben able to catch her when she is on
[20:01] (Euthanasia44) Well, how did your second day at work go?
[20:01] (stbdchick) ok
[20:01] (stbdchick) we had a 3 hour party
[20:02] (stbdchick) so not much work
[20:02] (Euthanasia44) great
[20:03] (Euthanasia44) (nick2 deleted) sent me a picture of her, have not got it yet
[20:04] (Euthanasia44) I will scann it and send you a copy
[20:07] (stbdchick) cool
[20:07] (stbdchick) I haven't seen a picture yet
[20:07] (stbdchick) you mean she mailed it?
[20:07] (Euthanasia44) I have not talked to her on the phone, and really need too
[20:07] (Euthanasia44) yes
[20:07] (Euthanasia44) on the way
[20:08] (Euthanasia44) I talk to (nick5 deleted) everyday by phone, calling for free through the internet of corse
[20:08] (stbdchick) how is she doing?
[20:09] (Euthanasia44) She really wants to do this
[20:09] (stbdchick) does she know why you do?
[20:09] (Euthanasia44) she will have a couple of thousand dollars next week, so she will have no problem paying her air fair
[20:10] (Euthanasia44) She does not know about my reasons, and have not ask
[20:10] (stbdchick) how did she get $? I thought she was young and lvied with her parents?
[20:10] (Euthanasia44) she does not care
[20:10] (Euthanasia44) When she worked, she had some kind of mutual fund
[20:11] (Euthanasia44) she can cash it in now
[20:11] (stbdchick) I guess saving for her retirement is irrelevant
[20:11] * stbdchick sighs.
[20:11] (Euthanasia44) yep, hahhaa
[20:11] (stbdchick) does she live near (nick4 deleted)? Ottawa?
[20:11] (stbdchick) <-knows nothing about Canada except it's a big giant land mass up there
[20:12] (Euthanasia44) No, she is in the French part
[20:12] (stbdchick) quebec?
[20:12] (Euthanasia44) manatoba I think
[20:13] (Euthanasia44) No, Montrial
[20:13] (Euthanasia44) I can't be sure of (nick2 deleted) until I talk to her
[20:13] (stbdchick) Montreal is a big city, isn't it?
[20:13] (Euthanasia44) yep
[20:13] (stbdchick) I don't know if anyone can be sure of (nick2 deleted)
[20:14] (stbdchick) she seems flaky to me
[20:14] (stbdchick) unsure
[20:14] (stbdchick) so (nick5 deleted) knows you will be killing others?
[20:14] (Euthanasia44) this is what I'm worrid about
[20:14] (Euthanasia44) yes
[20:15] (Euthanasia44) She knows she is last
[20:15] (stbdchick) what does she know about you?
[20:15] (Euthanasia44) and will be staying there for a week before she is done
[20:15] (Euthanasia44) Well, we talked about the details of doing her, and about how we will spend the week until her turn
[20:16] (stbdchick) she going to be doing sexual stuff with you?
[20:16] (Euthanasia44) I think so
[20:16] (stbdchick) you discussed with her?
[20:16] (Euthanasia44) We were talking in that area today
[20:17] (Euthanasia44) I will be talking to her tomorrow
[20:17] (Euthanasia44) again
[20:17] (stbdchick) go slow... don't scare her off
[20:17] (Euthanasia44) I know that
[20:17] (Euthanasia44) and I am
[20:17] (stbdchick) I have kind of got used to... the idea of not being the only one
[20:17] (Euthanasia44) I think I scared you off, hahahaha
[20:17] (stbdchick) and (nick2 deleted) is... well, dunno about her
[20:18] (stbdchick) scared ME off?
[20:18] (Euthanasia44) I really wanted (nick2 deleted) a lot
[20:18] (Euthanasia44) I will be very disapointed if I don't get her
[20:19] (stbdchick) why her specifically? she refused any sex, didn't she?
[20:19] (Euthanasia44) yep, but a great body
[20:19] (Euthanasia44) and lots of money to give me she wont need
[20:19] (Euthanasia44) I do need it
[20:20] (stbdchick) what for? I thought the money was just to cover the cost of the cabin?
[20:20] (Euthanasia44) Well, I had ask her for that and whatever she can sell and come up with to give me as well
[20:20] (Euthanasia44) she wont need it
[20:21] (stbdchick) what do you need money for?
[20:21] (stbdchick) yeah, but she's got kids
[20:21] (Euthanasia44) a lot of things
[20:21] (stbdchick) like what?
[20:21] (Euthanasia44) Like getting married
[20:22] (Euthanasia44) don't ask
[20:22] (stbdchick) well, I'm concerned
[20:22] (stbdchick) I thought your motivaiton was purely sexual
[20:22] (Euthanasia44) But even so, the cabin and the meat grinder and all the expences
[20:23] (Euthanasia44) it is for sure, but money also motivates me to take the risk as well, so both
[20:23] (stbdchick) you didn't talk to me about money much
[20:24] (Euthanasia44) No, because she had enough for both of you
[20:24] (stbdchick) I never got the impression that money was a motivator for you before
[20:24] (stbdchick) I thought... I understood
[20:24] (stbdchick) now I'm kinda confused
[20:24] (Euthanasia44) I have to regroup if she is not going to be in this
[20:25] (stbdchick) how much does a meat grinder cost?
[20:25] (Euthanasia44) from what i'm looking at, $1,300.00 up
[20:25] (stbdchick) and the cabin?
[20:26] (Euthanasia44) if I get the right grinder, can just put the ground meat and bone down the garbage desposal
[20:26] (Euthanasia44) the cabin I showed you was 1500 per week
[20:27] (Euthanasia44) off season
[20:27] (Euthanasia44) So over 3 thousand
[20:27] (stbdchick) so... we're talking about $4500 in expenses total
[20:27] (Euthanasia44) over 4 that is
[20:27] (Euthanasia44) around that
[20:27] (stbdchick) cause you won't be buying groceries any
[20:28] (stbdchick) how much are you getting from (nick5 deleted)?
[20:28] (Euthanasia44) she has 2 grand, so what she does not spend on air, I get
[20:28] (Euthanasia44) 2 grand Canadian that is
[20:28] (Euthanasia44) about 15% less then our money
[20:29] (Euthanasia44) I might look for a cheeper cabin
[20:29] (Euthanasia44) that one is very nice, but expensive
[20:30] (Euthanasia44) but she has more then enough for air fair with money left over
[20:30] (stbdchick) how far is Montreal? I mean... might not be more than $500 for airfare
[20:30] (Euthanasia44) it would probably not be more then that
[20:31] (stbdchick) which means at least $1500... which translates to about $1100-$1200
[20:31] (Euthanasia44) yes
[20:31] (stbdchick) that would cover the grinder
[20:31] (stbdchick) so we're talking another $3K for the cabin
[20:31] (Euthanasia44) well, I have to have that money before she comes, not after
[20:31] (stbdchick) cause I feel no real desire to help finance your wedding, no offense
[20:31] (Euthanasia44) and there is tax
[20:32] (Euthanasia44) Well, I'm going to still give (nick2 deleted) a chance here
[20:32] (Euthanasia44) rather you want me to have more then the expencises or not
[20:33] (Euthanasia44) I will need to pin her down however
[20:33] (stbdchick) well, I couldn't get that much out of my 401K via a hardship withdrawal
[20:33] (Euthanasia44) ok
[20:33] (stbdchick) but I could take a loan for any amount in the account
[20:33] (stbdchick) whish is $14,000
[20:33] (Euthanasia44) oh?
[20:34] (Euthanasia44) that would be nice
[20:34] (stbdchick) obviously, I wish to leave as much as possible to my daughter
[20:34] (Euthanasia44) yes
[20:34] (Euthanasia44) Well, she gets your insurance at some time
[20:35] (stbdchick) yes, but... whatever isn't absolutely necessary for costs is going to her
[20:35] (Euthanasia44) does she get your retirment if you turn up missing?
[20:35] (stbdchick) I care about her much more than your wedding, again, no offense
[20:35] (stbdchick) sure... she's beneficiary on all my accounts
[20:36] (stbdchick) it wouldn't really be abd if she didn't get it for a few years
[20:36] (stbdchick) cause she'd qualify for full financial aid as an orphan
[20:36] (Euthanasia44) But they can't release the money unless your dead, or assumed to be dead
[20:36] (stbdchick) which means the govt would pay for her education
[20:36] (stbdchick) so instead of my money paying for college, she'd get it afterwards... and still have the college
[20:37] (Euthanasia44) can you get unsecured loans?
[20:38] (stbdchick) no, I have bad credit
[20:38] (stbdchick) but I can borrow from my 401K
[20:39] (Euthanasia44) but you only want to go up to 4 K
[20:39] (stbdchick) I only want to go up to what we *need*
[20:39] (stbdchick) you are getting sex and a lot of dinners out of this, I'm not gonna pay you too
[20:40] (Euthanasia44) Yes, guess I am rather selfish
[20:41] (Euthanasia44) how much sex?
[20:41] (stbdchick) yeah, we never finished agreeing on that, did we?
[20:41] (Euthanasia44) no
[20:41] (stbdchick) I had originally agreed to one day
[20:41] (stbdchick) and you started asking for 3 or 4
[20:41] (Euthanasia44) thought we deed, but not sure
[20:41] (Euthanasia44) yes
[20:42] (stbdchick) if we assume (nick2 deleted) is out of the picture, I can be there first, right?
[20:42] (Euthanasia44) yep
[20:42] (Euthanasia44) and go first
[20:43] (stbdchick) so is (nick5 deleted) just ok with being there with corpses? or is she ok with being there and meeting me and stuff?
[20:43] (Euthanasia44) she is fine with both
[20:44] (Euthanasia44) so, about how much sex?
[20:44] (stbdchick) we will see what happens with (nick2 deleted), though she is very changeable and I'm not sure we can count on her
[20:44] (Euthanasia44) I know
[20:44] (stbdchick) Euth, it is kinda gonna depend on who is gonna be there and when and such
[20:44] (stbdchick) (nick5 deleted) into chicks at all?
[20:45] (Euthanasia44) Not sure
[20:45] (Euthanasia44) taking it slow
[20:45] (Euthanasia44) rather (nick2 deleted) does it or not
[20:45] (Euthanasia44) how much sex are you willing to give me?
[20:45] (stbdchick) (nick2 deleted) is completly opposed to sex at all
[20:45] (stbdchick) and I don't think she's into women at all
[20:45] (Euthanasia44) yep
[20:46] (stbdchick) some of the chicks in channel flirt back with me, she doesn't
[20:46] (Euthanasia44) I know
[20:46] (stbdchick) I told ya, Euth, it depends
[20:46] (Euthanasia44) I promised her I would not force her
[20:46] (Euthanasia44) and I wont
[20:46] (stbdchick) if me and (nick5 deleted) are there, and not (nick2 deleted), and (nick5 deleted) is into chicks too...
[20:46] (stbdchick) well, I might be extremely motivated
[20:46] (stbdchick) heh
[20:47] (Euthanasia44) hahhaha
[20:47] (Euthanasia44) I want to know if you would serve me for 3 or 4 days?
[20:47] (Euthanasia44) I like women into women as well
[20:48] (stbdchick) in general, I have had no drive for almost a year now
[20:48] (stbdchick) and I have less drive with men in general
[20:48] (stbdchick) and would be inhibited by (nick2 deleted)'s presence
[20:48] (stbdchick) so it depends
[20:48] (Euthanasia44) BRB, have to eat now
[20:48] (Euthanasia44) brb
[20:49] (stbdchick) later d00d
Session Close: Tue Dec 19 20:50:10 2000
Session Start: Tue Dec 19 20:57:25 2000
[20:57] Session Ident: Euthanasia44 (IP deleted)
[20:57] (Euthanasia44) Hi, I'm back
[20:57] (stbdchick) re
[20:57] (stbdchick) you ate fast
[20:58] (Euthanasia44) yep, was not a body of a woman,hahaha
[20:58] (Euthanasia44) Now back to business
[20:58] (stbdchick) faster when ya don't have to hunt, kill, butcher...
[20:58] (Euthanasia44) there would be food expencises
[20:59] (Euthanasia44) she will need to eat for 1 week, and I have promissed her some good stong German beer
[20:59] (Euthanasia44) and have the cost of the drug as well, and getting a hold of it
[21:00] (stbdchick) d00d, you'd be buying groceries for yourself at home anyways, thta's not an extra cost
[21:00] (Euthanasia44) I do know that you and (nick5 deleted) will go through with it for sure
[21:00] (stbdchick) which drug are we talking here?
[21:00] (Euthanasia44) the drug is called GHB, common date rape drug
[21:01] (Euthanasia44) GBL would work as well, it becomes GHB in the body after consumed
[21:01] (stbdchick) I thought that was cheap and easily available... only some states have banned it so far...
[21:01] (stbdchick) what is gbl?
[21:01] (stbdchick) I will have to reserach this a bit
[21:01] (Euthanasia44) go ahead, congress made GHB very illegal
[21:02] (Euthanasia44) Hve to get it out of the U.S.
[21:02] (Euthanasia44) You used to be albe to buy GBL as a cleaner to get away with it
[21:03] (Euthanasia44) you will find lots about GHB on the internet
[21:04] (stbdchick) I will have to look into it a bit and see what I can find
[21:04] (Euthanasia44) it is a nice rec drug too, but when mixed with a drink, and in over does
[21:04] (stbdchick) meanwhile, I am "faking" it up in channel a bit here...
[21:04] (stbdchick) I cna't spend ALL my time chatting with you or they'll get suspicious
[21:04] (stbdchick) but I'm here
[21:05] (Euthanasia44) you can leave the channel and change your nick
[21:05] (Euthanasia44) I'm not in any channel now
[21:05] (Euthanasia44) Oh wait
[21:05] (Euthanasia44) I am
[21:05] (Euthanasia44) hahha
[21:05] (Euthanasia44) Now I'm not
[21:06] (Euthanasia44) how about letting me call you?
[21:06] (stbdchick) I'm not sure I wanna give you my phone number yet
[21:07] (stbdchick) I have a kid, you know
[21:07] (stbdchick) why don't I call you?
[21:07] (Euthanasia44) I'm not going to eat her up
[21:07] (stbdchick) could call on my lunch break tomorrow
[21:07] (Euthanasia44) or say anything to her
[21:07] (Euthanasia44) why don't you just trust me
[21:08] (Euthanasia44) I would never say anything to your daughter
[21:08] (Euthanasia44) I can call you free through the internet
[21:09] (Euthanasia44) and only when you say it is ok
[21:09] (stbdchick) yeah, but you have no risk if I call you
[21:09] (Euthanasia44) yes i do
[21:09] (stbdchick) whereas I have huge risk if I trust you first and I'm wrong
[21:09] (Euthanasia44) your call is a record
[21:09] (stbdchick) you do not have a child
[21:09] (stbdchick) there is no risk compared to that
[21:09] (stbdchick) no record
[21:09] (stbdchick) on my lunch break, from a payphone, using a prepaid calling card
[21:10] (Euthanasia44) you don't trust me at all, yet you are going to let me kill you?
[21:10] (Euthanasia44) Ok
[21:10] (Euthanasia44) but after that, you have to trust me too
[21:10] (stbdchick) we'll see how the call goes
[21:11] (stbdchick) if I feel ok after talking to you, then I will
[21:11] (Euthanasia44) 12 noon?
[21:11] (stbdchick) 1 my time
[21:11] (stbdchick) which would be ten your time
[21:11] (Euthanasia44) I honestly would do nothing to your daughter
[21:11] (stbdchick) if anything comes up and I can't, I'll email you from my hotmail account
[21:11] (Euthanasia44) but I will give you my number
[21:12] (Euthanasia44) 1 your time would be 10 am my time
[21:12] (Euthanasia44) where are you going to keep my number?
[21:12] (Euthanasia44) I don't want my number left anywhere
[21:13] (stbdchick) on the back of the prepaid calling card
[21:13] (Euthanasia44) if you have a note book, you will have to bring it
[21:13] (stbdchick) so when the card is used up, it'll be discarded
[21:13] (Euthanasia44) Ok
[21:13] (Euthanasia44) ok
[21:13] (Euthanasia44) (phone number deleted)
[21:13] (stbdchick) ok, got it
[21:14] (Euthanasia44) I only call (nick5 deleted) when it is ok
[21:14] (Euthanasia44) I would do the same with you
[21:14] (Euthanasia44) I'm not really that bad
[21:15] (stbdchick) well, I wanna reassure myself of that
[21:15] (stbdchick) easier to fake online, harder voice
[21:15] (Euthanasia44) but I'm thinking I better get this setup or we will lose the chance
[21:16] (Euthanasia44) I wanted to talk to (nick2 deleted) first
[21:16] (Euthanasia44) I'm very very sure of (nick5 deleted)
[21:16] (stbdchick) she sounds stable
[21:17] (stbdchick) I am interested to know more about her
[21:17] (Euthanasia44) But she does not want to wait longer then she hs too
[21:17] (Euthanasia44) stable?
[21:17] (Euthanasia44) she wanted to stab herself in the tummy
[21:17] (Euthanasia44) but she is stable in the way of being very sure and commited to doing this with me
[21:17] (stbdchick) well, she hasn't been changing her mind tho
[21:18] (Euthanasia44) Oh no
[21:18] (Euthanasia44) I have tried to give her all the reasons to not do it
[21:18] (Euthanasia44) but she is sure this is the only way for her
[21:18] (Euthanasia44) she is a dead chick rather i help her or not, adn if i don't help her, she wil suffer a lot
[21:19] (Euthanasia44) She is what i feel would be conserdered learning disabled
[21:20] (stbdchick) how so?
[21:20] (Euthanasia44) She hs no motivation
[21:20] (Euthanasia44) she is not real smart
[21:20] (Euthanasia44) why she hs never thought to ask me why I'm doing this
[21:20] (stbdchick) not smart or actually slow?
[21:20] (Euthanasia44) probably more not smart
[21:21] (Euthanasia44) but we do have a language problem sometimes as well
[21:21] (Euthanasia44) but she does ok with english
[21:24] (stbdchick) that may be the problem rather than intelligence
[21:24] (stbdchick) what did she do when she worked?
[21:24] (Euthanasia44) not sure
[21:24] (Euthanasia44) forgot
[21:26] (Euthanasia44) you were saying about your not being into men?
[21:29] (stbdchick) not very much
[21:29] (stbdchick) sometimes, if I feel clsoe to one
[21:29] (Euthanasia44) hmmmmmm
[21:31] (Euthanasia44) you would be the happest if I killed you the day you got there ha?
[21:31] (Euthanasia44) (nick2 deleted) wanted to be done right away
[21:32] (stbdchick) depends
[21:33] (stbdchick) on if (nick5 deleted) is bi or bi-ish
[21:33] (Euthanasia44) not sure that she has had much sexual experinces
[21:34] (Euthanasia44) I'm trying to get that info of corse without being to obvious
[21:35] (stbdchick) hmmm....
[21:35] (stbdchick) maybe it'd be easier for her to talk to a woman...
[21:35] (Euthanasia44) hahahah
[21:36] (Euthanasia44) I'm doing just fin with her
[21:36] (Euthanasia44) she likes talking to me
[21:36] (Euthanasia44) We were talking about massage today
[21:37] (stbdchick) she likes giving massage? receiving?
[21:37] (Euthanasia44) it was getting interesting
[21:37] (Euthanasia44) I was talking about my giving her a massage
[21:38] (Euthanasia44) and she wants me too
[21:38] (stbdchick) hmmm... that's a nice innocent way to start
[21:38] (Euthanasia44) yep
[21:38] (stbdchick) ask her how she'd feel about a woman giving her a massage
[21:38] (Euthanasia44) Ok
[21:38] (Euthanasia44) maybe she wants both, hahha
[21:39] (stbdchick) ;)
[21:39] (Euthanasia44) I will call her at 9 am my time so I will be done by 10 am for you to call
[21:40] (Euthanasia44) are you going to try again for (nick2 deleted)?
[21:41] (stbdchick) maybe tomorrow
[21:41] (stbdchick) I'm getting tired
[21:41] (stbdchick) this work shit sucks
[21:41] (Euthanasia44) I see
[21:42] (Euthanasia44) Well, I'm thinking of all the options
[21:43] (Euthanasia44) with women, are you the giver, or reciever?
[21:44] (stbdchick) giver
[21:44] (stbdchick) absolutely
[21:45] (Euthanasia44) you don't mind if I'm there too do ya? hahhaha
[21:45] (Euthanasia44) I have ben with 2 bi women before
[21:45] (stbdchick) no problem
[21:46] (Euthanasia44) I think with this being the last week of her life, she might be very open to it
[21:47] (Euthanasia44) she wanted to try LSD, but I do not know where to get it, and don't want her to freak out either, so she said it ws ok
[21:47] (Euthanasia44) I used to drop acid when iwas in my teens
[21:47] (Euthanasia44) but that was a very long time ago
[21:48] (stbdchick) I haven't done acid
[21:48] (Euthanasia44) the drug GHBwhen not over dosed, is a great sex stimulent for women
[21:49] (Euthanasia44) to risky
[21:49] (Euthanasia44) don't want any freaking out on me
[21:49] (Euthanasia44) GHB has some good things to it
[21:49] (stbdchick) I dunno much about it
[21:50] (Euthanasia44) besides knocking someone out so can't be awakend
[21:51] (Euthanasia44) if she is into BI with you, how many days do you want? and of corse you would be serving me as well.
[21:52] (stbdchick) 4 or 5
[21:52] (Euthanasia44) She is 5-7 120 lbs with small breasts
[21:54] (stbdchick) drat
[21:54] (stbdchick) <-loves big tits
[21:54] (Euthanasia44) hahahah
[21:54] (Euthanasia44) (nick2 deleted) has small ones too
[21:54] (Euthanasia44) but small is firm and better for rosting i think
[21:55] (Euthanasia44) we will see
[21:56] (Euthanasia44) I will be eating your breasts first
[21:56] (stbdchick) I don't think they would be good
[21:56] (stbdchick) it's all fat and a few glands
[21:56] (Euthanasia44) maybe
[21:57] (Euthanasia44) the legs are the most important to me for eating
[21:57] (Euthanasia44) but will try the breasts
[21:57] (Euthanasia44) I should start making a list of things I need to do this
[21:58] (Euthanasia44) then we can see how much it will cost
[21:58] (Euthanasia44) I had writen to a few companies about the grinders, and only 1 wrote back to just ask me a bunch of questions
[21:59] (Euthanasia44) I would butcher you on the fourth day I think
[22:00] (Euthanasia44) I would butcher you on the fourth day even if (nick2 deleted) was there because she would have ben done the first day
[22:00] (stbdchick) questions about what?
[22:00] (Euthanasia44) what size meat and bone and condition o the bone and so on and so on
[22:01] (Euthanasia44) I will have to all
[22:01] (Euthanasia44) call
[22:01] (Euthanasia44) I have to be sure it will do what I need
[22:03] (Euthanasia44) If she is sexual with you, that will make you be more sexual with me?
[22:04] (stbdchick) oh yeah
[22:04] (stbdchick) chicks inspire me to great levels of horniness
[22:04] (stbdchick) ;)
[22:58] (Euthanasia44) your talking to (nick2 deleted) too I'm sure?
[23:02] (stbdchick) I had six fucking pm windows open
[23:02] (stbdchick) yes, I am calling her tomorrow
[23:02] (Euthanasia44) Ok
[23:02] (stbdchick) I hafta go, am exhausted
[23:02] (stbdchick) take care
[23:02] (stbdchick) talk to you tomorrow
[23:03] (Euthanasia44) she promised me to call me on thursday
[23:03] (Euthanasia44) bye
Session Close: Tue Dec 19 23:04:31 2000